Emoti-tron

Yeah, I'm not very great at this whole... sharing feelings thing. Not saying that I don't enjoy listening about people's problems I do. I'm told I'm a great listener, and I'm good at keeping important secrets and such. It's the me talking about MY problems I find difficult. I just never consider my problems worth bitching about.

Or worse, that the problems I have aren't worth bitching about, so I just come off as an annoying emo kid crying over how he can't afford the newest sadcore album that dropped out. This becomes especially annoying when I try to drop hints in a conversation that I have something on my mind, and said person doesn't really notice and keeps muttering about whatever.

I have a test, a quiz, and a paper idea due tomorrow, and I can't bring myself to do them since I've been in a funk for the past 4 days or so. I just keep getting this feeling (obviously for dumb reasons) that the type of person I am is uninteresting for females searching for potential mates, and the only way to fix this problem is to create an alternate persona in order to do so (or at the very least spark some interesting stories in my life). I just don't like being the shy, awkward guy I've been for so long, but I have not the slightest clue on how I would fix that and be more awesome. I just automatically assume I'm within the top 10 worst people in the room, while ironically always keeping my spot within the bottom 5 of that list... I guess I just want to know... that I'm good-looking and I'm only single right now because I choose to be, and not because I come off as a creepy-stalker-rapist. Although with my choices of clothing and body-language I could see how people would make that mistake....